I'm taking a second to have a pitty party here, because I have nowhere else the people involved wont see it.
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Yet again another pregnancy announcement in the family, and yet again I'm stuck sitting here feeling sad, jealous, and "useless" due to fertility issues. Every time I turn around somebody is pregnant or just had their baby, or I'm stuck at a little toddlers bday party.
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[email protected] 2x" width="20" height="20" /> Then the newest announcement comes from a couple so adamant they don't want kids for a long time, if at all, like they're trying to prove how much they don't want kids now.. and now they rub it in everybody's face that they are pregnant. Rubbing salt into my heart, lol.
It really sucks to be "broken", not qualified to adopt, can't afford medical help to get pregnant. And then to make matters worse, all those busy popping kids out like pop tarts sit there and tell me don't give up, pray, God gives you what you deserve.. Really? That is one of the most hurtful things to tell a woman who can't have kids. All these people on drugs, prostitutes, welfare leaches who work the system, people killing their babies..they deserve to have a kid, and I don't? Ugh.. Just.. Ugh... I'm so tired of them (my husband's family) acting like it is no big deal for us, they are so insensitive and rude. It has been 9 years now, it isn't going to happen. It isn't like I can just go take a pill and be all better, and no-I don't need to just have more sex, lol, that doesn't make you ovulate stupid heads...
Thanks.. I needed that vent...
Now I'm gonna go find something to shove in my mouth (probably an oatmeal cream pie) and something to buy at Sephora... I'm debating between the Too Faced Chocolate Bar eye palette, the Stila eye palette in Spirit, or if I want the new Urban Decay shadow box exlusive to Ulta. Decisions, decisions..