i talked with my bf today and he makes me feel so stupid cus he study a lot and know everything
and i was frozen cus i was with my ex for almost 9 years
he got a great job and he want me to study something before we will move together and i think its a waist of time and i should study something when ill be there
cus only god know how much time it will take
and the worse part was when he asked me what i want to study and i said i dont know
well i want to study something i need to know what they got there and to choose
i just want to be with him
i feel like im stupid and not good enough and that he will leave me soon for sure
alto he give me power to believe in myself and to know that i can do anything i still feel down i dont know how ill be near him tomorrow i know that ill cry
im afraid to lose him
he told me that his ex (he even said her name) search for work at the malls there and she didnt find anything
and i told him but she didnt asked if someone need a cleaning lady
ad i said that like its a good thing
i tried to show him how much i care for him but he think that i need to think about my future and right now
i like that about him .....most of the times
i think i need to cry a good long cry and to wake up and to start doing
